Living Life Under 5 Foot

Here is my annual sum up of the year! xoxo Shay January- Started my job at the Children's Theatre, got in a pudding fight, created the robot box, moved into a new apartment in Salt Lake. February- chopped 9 inches off my hair, Bridge to Terabithia was finished and performed, Internship started at Utah Trailer Source. March- Keaton hits his year mark in the mission, Jonny comes home from mission, I meet Judith Rasband April- Emery hits 1!!! Jake hits year mark! School is finished I have a 3.9 GPA, Job starts at the LDS Business college May- I visit home, Quit the Children's Theatre, Katy and I had our first fight, Nate moved to UTAH! June- The accident, my jaw surgery, I visit ABQ, Ben leaves, watched Hot Rod 4 times. July- I watched the entire series of Ugly Betty, Found a new love for Mint Chocolate Chip Brownie, Turned 19, drove the mini cooper August- Worked my tail off (60 hours a week), went to 7 peaks, long boarded down the U of U hill, quit all my jobs,

-Miracles happen - It snows - The sun shines through clouds - I paint walls - Bananas become my favourite fruit - I travel with my dad - I try to sing publicly  - I see my family in Spokane - It's Christmas time - I get excited for New Years - My sister loved her present  - You see smiles on people's faces - There are friendly strangers - Strangers fill up my gas tank and check my oil - My car gets fixed - I get locked out of my house because I forgot the code.. - Healing takes place - Closure is found - Strength to move on shows itself - Happiness is everywhere - My sisters are pregnant - I find out what they are having through FACEBOOK . guh. (Indie.) -Tycy graduates - Indie comes to visit me - I buy a new hockey stick - I see my wonderful friend Mary - I don't become the hulk - or get super powers. It's a sad day  -But once in a while.. the Lords plan starts to make a little sense. Family. Source.

Well,  This week I started my treatment,  Basically they put some radioactive stuff inside of me, and shot gamma rays at me to see where I was bleeding so they could stop it. I'm pretty much going to be the Hulk No big deal. But honestly, it's the weirdest feeling when you sit there and then they inject some stuff into you and WITHIN seconds, the world comes crashing down around you.  Sometimes I wish we could just "inject" the Lord's will into our veins. Where it would take over seamlessly  and we could live our lives just how He wants. Sadly enough, this can't happen because then it takes away this thing called agency.  Strange.

I had to wait a day to figure out how I wanted to verbalize this. 1 year ago 4 people from my small town were killed in a car accident. One of which was my really close friend Renzo. He would always joke around  about us getting married, and things like that. He would live funny notes on my car, always give me a hug when he saw me, and try non stop to make me smile. It worked. Even since his death even the memories make me smile. Here's the thing, the year of firsts is over. Which means the year of new things can happen. Wallowing isn't good. Even though you try to be good and faithful in this life, doesn't mean everything will always be all peachy keen. In fact the more faithful you are the more the adversary tries to cut you down. Here's the thing though. He won't have power over me. This last year has been one of the hardest, most heart breaking, painful, horrible years I have ever had (and that's saying worse then the divorce, worse then the bone

Enjoy!!  My October life will consist of this until I reach 1,000 names!  I don't care who you are... this is DANG funny! 

Growing muscle is a funny thing, you have to tear the muscle first, which hurts, and then you have you push through the pain in order to make it strong. It takes about 3 days before you feel a little better again, yet if you stop moving then the muscle returns to how it was and all the pain was for nothing. Dislocating your jaw is painful. But it's more painful to relocated it, and to move it around afterwards. Yet, even though it's stinging pain you have to keep it moving or you lose movement in your jaw which is a bad thing. Blood blisters HURT! Let's say something gets pinched.. like a big toe! Even though it's hurting and you don't want to walk on it you just have to. Eventually the pain is gone and all that's left for a while is a weird mark. A ripped ligament needs pressure, movement, and exposure, or the healing won't take place. I learn so often about physical things, and how closely related they are to spiritual and emotional things, but man

Only pictures can sum this one up.

I went paint-balling this week... LET ME TELL YOU! I was TERRIFIED! The first round I just hide hoping not to get hit, then as I became a little more confident I began shooting a couple people and moving around a bit more. Then pretty soon, I was running and planning ways to win and then BAM! I got hit right in my rib cage and it knocked the wind right out of me, I had to surrender and walk back to my base. Next round, I was still doing everything, just more careful not to allow anyone to sneak up behind me and shoot me, because it really really hurts. By the end of the night I was tired and a little beat, but I walked out with a smile on my face and my head held high. Life is like this sometimes.. Don't you think?  We are scared to do something, and therefore we hide, or we keep in our comfort zone in fear of the unknown, hoping that no one will find us. But sooner or later we have to emerge and fight for something. As we do this we begin to warm up to an idea, a

Country music is such a weird thing, sometimes I really like it, and other times I cannot stand it.. but lately.. It's all I love.. and it's super confusing as to why! It can be so depressing!!!! Anyways off that rant, moving on. Life is such a funny thing, the way things work out. Plans, are meant to help us right? Well sometimes I feel like I make all these wonderful plans and in the end it doesn't really matter anyways. Humph. I'm taking the time to just go with it. I have an over all plan, but right now my little plans keep falling through, and it's getting rather annoying. Huffy Breath. Life is just a funny thing, you never know what's around the corner.

I received the BEST compliment today! Someone came and I smiled and said hello, and they said. "Oh you must be mormon!!" AWE SHUCKS!!! I have been working hard for so long on my testimony, and for the time of my life I was unsure, it sure makes up for it when someone can tell just by looking at me. The man went on to explain how I had this glimmer in my eye and was always happy. Therefore, he concluded, I must be a mormon. I believe I enjoy this. It was just a grand day let me tell you. Things just went well. I helped my good friend plan how he was going to ask his girl to marry him. I had fun! I've also refreshed my love for the 50's and found this ADORABLE dress.. just saying! Well, that's all for now folks! How pretty is this?

This week has been full of it all for me!  - A date or two -Bought a waffle maker -Cleaned my room -Worked -FINALLY BOUGHT A CAMERA!! School is going great, have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE LOVE LOVE English! Getting back into the grove of professional writing has been a little difficult for me, but it's coming along. My first assignment is a profile essay. I was thinking one night, " What can I do this on it?" I sat, wearing my vintage 1950's pants.. when it dawned on me.... "I should do it on the 1950's!!!!!" and thus it has begun. I've been calling, everyone I know, and even meeting new people who were alive in those times. This essay is coming, and will be posted when I'm finished!  I want this!

I have some pretty wonderful friends.  Let me explain..... 1) Katy! My roommate!  Yesterday, it wasn't like I was in a terrible mood, but I defiantly wasn't in a fun playing mood. I really just wanted to sit around and kinda have a pity party. But... She said to me, "Shay! Let's make some jewelry." So I did that instead. 2) Steve! This cuteness boy! He was having a welcome to the neighborhood party in his apartment, but I really didn't want to go with the mood I was in, however Katy told me I should go. Then Steve was pretty wonderful because there was a bunch of people, and he is so good to me. He got me food, and brownies, and we played games and he just made me laugh and be happy. I am surrounded by such wonderful people. I really love me life. At the same time, I can't believe 3 months ago I said goodbye. It's been such a blur. I was told last night that it really never gets easier but you learn to have more acceptance. I truly hope I am on th

WOZERS! Another year has come and gone! So many things happened in one year! Let me list some of the highlights.. January  2011 -White out Dance, got my Grad shoes. Seth left on Mission February 2011 - Jake got his mission call, Indie and I took a road trip to Rexburg March 2011 - Got accepted into LDSBC!!!!!  Keaton left on mission April 2011 - Jake came up for a surprise visit, Daniel came home from his mission, Jake left on a mission, I went to EUROPE! Emery was born! My cute little bloog of a nephew! May 2011 - Grad, Daniel came up, took my speech tests, officially in YSA, Spencer left on mission. Atreyu turned one!!! woot! Started walking! June 2011 - I started a new job, Cut my hair, seminary grad, ARCT test, DONE HIGH SCHOOL July 2011 - Moved into the master suit in my house, My 18th birthday, Magrath Days, dislocated jaw Des and I "break up" August 2011 - Started dating Brad B., went on a walky across the road thingy, picnic/ dancing in the park, bou