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Well, 
This week I started my treatment, 
Basically they put some radioactive stuff inside of me, and shot gamma rays at me to see where I was bleeding so they could stop it.
I'm pretty much going to be the Hulk
No big deal.

But honestly, it's the weirdest feeling when you sit there and then they inject some stuff into you and WITHIN seconds, the world comes crashing down around you. 


Sometimes I wish we could just "inject" the Lord's will into our veins. Where it would take over seamlessly  and we could live our lives just how He wants. Sadly enough, this can't happen because then it takes away this thing called agency. 
Strange.




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