Living Life Under 5 Foot

What do you do if everything you want, means you have to give up everything you have?

Adjusting to life in Salt Lake has actually been pretty easy,  I mean I have had my ups and downs about this place,  but at the end of the day,  It's the people that are around me that make all the difference.  Some say I was running away from things in Lethbridge  Some could even think I just got bored Or my job ended.  or I left for or because of a boy.  That's not the case at all.  Although I honestly have no clue really why I left,  I'm glad I did.  There is something thrilling about a new place.  New friends,  New apartment New town,  New experiences, New job. New Shay.  Not like I'm not a compilation of everything I have been in my life.  I am. I'm just not held down by the social norms of those who have known me for a long time.  I am who I am now,  and I can see better who I want to be.  Though, I fall short many times on accomplishing ...

Dating is like taking a road trip. There are fun times, and annoying times. There are times you just want to get off the road, and times you can't wait to get on. Some people are much like interesting cities in the middle of nowhere. You would never expect to see. The drive is long, and sometimes seems endless. There are times you break down, times when everything is going wrong, and sadly enough there are times when car accidents happen that can leave you stranded on the side of the road. It's times like that where I like to stay off the road for fear of destroying another car. It's the safer route to end the road trip, and stay in the town which helped heal the car accident. Some people can get back on the road fast, others pretend they can and crash and burn shortly again, and some special drivers, learn the cations of the road and wait their turn before attempting the feat again. I'm the type of driver that fears away from getting on the road. There is no c...

In this world today, we are often asked what we believe, because we have to have something we believe in otherwise this world seems dim and dark. We need a belief system, something to support us. In todays trials it's a necessity. I came across the talk by Elder Jeffery R Holland from the LDS General Conference in April. "Lord, I believe." LOOK IT UP. http://youtu.be/2nPY22FoDpY Shay's thoughts. Often we lead our lives with what we don't know, but as I do that it makes me question what I do know. If I change it to leading with what I do know, there is something firm to stand on. This world changes so fast, mostly in way we don't want it to, ways we don't plan, and places our hearts don't want to believe. Sometimes it's difficult to understand why things happen, or why we are going through them. For me I struggle understanding why some prayers are answered and others seem to be forgotten, but then I am remember that I am living for the...

This is a story that I have never told I gotta get this off my chest to let it go I need to take back the light inside you stole You're a criminal And you steal like you're a pro All the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound So ashamed, so confused I was broken and bruised Now I'm a warrior Now I've got thicker skin I'm a warrior I'm stronger than I've ever been And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in I'm a warrior And you can never hurt me again Out of the ashes, I'm burning like a fire You can save your apologies, you're nothing but a liar I've got shame, I've got scars That I will never show I'm a survivor In more ways than you know Cause all the pain and the truth I wear like a battle wound So ashamed, so confused I'm not broken or bruised 'Cause now I'm a warrior Now I've got thicker skin I'm a warrior I'm stronger...

I think birthdays are a funny thing.  Celebrating getting one year older.  It almost seems forced.  However, that being said my family gave me a wonderful day of birth party.  The centre of attention was NOT me, but they did special things for me all day that I loved, it made me feel special and remembered. I've never had a birthday like this before.  At the end of the day I was still super happy.  Yay for me being 20.  Two whole decades over.  I've made it another year.  More to come! xox Shay! 

When I was 15 and 16 I was struggling with a bone disease.  One that sometimes was hard to fight, it hurt, and I was in pain. I couldn't live a normal teenage life. In fact I spent more time in hospitals and meeting with doctors than I did with many other things in my life. I had to quit sports, otherwise according to one doctor, "By age 21 I could be in a wheelchair." It was intimidating, to have my whole life change in such a drastic way, therefore in a way I gave up on myself. At the time I remember my dad telling me that after my surgery I would be able to run again, and play sports again, I just had to let my body heal.  FAST FORWARD 4 YEARS.  This year I started playing indoor soccer, nothing super big. But then everything with my internal bleeding happened.  Fast forward through, 1 cancer scare, 2 radiation treatments, 3 months basically on bedrest, and then my hair turning to crap.  This July 20th, on my 20th birthday I ran a 5...