Living Life Under 5 Foot

I honestly fell in love with this song! I already love this band.. but man oh man.. this song is just GREAT! We shall pretend it's my music Blog day! Listen to the Lyrics, it's about going after something, no matter how it hurts, because sometimes you have to say goodbye to something because they or it is not good for you!

I have been doing better at life. I feel a little happier, and I feel like I can smile and not feel guilty. Yet the pain is still real, and still there. This accident changed my life, and made me reconsider where I am going. I heard this quote that reads... "Isn't it strange that the times we come closest to our maker is when a life is given and when it's taken away." I have discovered this in my life over the past month, the pain is still too real to fully comprehend and at the same time it brings back the pain of losing my Ma and Pa Kinneard, and losing my Pa. All before it was in my mind "their time." Life is soo precious, I don't want to let one day pass me by without doing something for someone else. These people that have come and then gone from my life were there for a purpose.         Pa-K gave me hope when I was ready to give up on myself. On Trek I wanted to just give up, cry, and feel sorry for me. He taught me to learn how to accept char...

The sleet rain just doesn't want to let up today. It seems its better soaking, and making people miserable then allowing us to peacefully walk to and from school. My friend told me this will go in phases, the good times and the bad. Sometimes it feels that the bad outweighs the good. My young women's leader once told me ( when I was feeling very down, distraught and just overall frustrated at my life) she said, " It may seem like the bad overtakes the good, but really thats just the Lord showing you how much bad you can take. Shay let it humble you and bring you to your knees and then all of the sudden you remember all the good and then you know there is no way the bad will ever overtake the good." - Sister Gough. - Life is good. Life is great. Life is short. Life is precious. Life is to be lived, and life is to be loved. Just like with this weather the storm can't last forever. Eventually the sun will come out and the bitter winds will end, the trees will bud ...

Ever had one of those days when you don't really know what you want to say... yet you want to say something? Well that is why it's one of "those" blog posts! Ever just felt like you want to create something worth reading but you don't know where to begin... Well.. that is why it's one of "those" blog posts! I'm trying to do my homework.. but my roommate gave me this stuff that helps with sore tummies.. and I think its a little loaded with caffeine!!!  Therefore I am out of my MIND bored!!!!

    When it's all said and done no one cares what clothes you wore, who your friends were, or what car you drove. However they will remember what you said, how to made people feel, and what your smile looked like. We are all going to leave this world at some point, now whether its next week, next year, or in 100 years no one will know. We should live our lives at a standard that at our funeral people will stand up and say, "He was everyone's best friend" or " I remember her bright smile" or " He had that way of making me feel important" or "Her eyes lite up whenever anyone was near her." God hears and answers prayers, I know it, I have felt it through this past week and I know everyone else in Magrath has felt the same. They were all great kids, my old seminary teacher told me " We cry because we loved, and that's the best reason to cry." Crying won't bring them back, I know Renzo would not want me crying my life away, ...

I haven't fully wrapped my brain around the fact that my friend is taken from this life. Sometimes it feels like it honestly can't be real and I will wake up from this bad dream at any given moment. However I know deep down that's not the case. Coming home for the first time since I left has been rather strange. It feels as if it's been a long time here, and I need to get back to real life in order to begin moving on with my life. Things change in the blink of an eye. In Jorden's funeral the quote was said, "Death motivates us to live" Which I think is so powerful and so true. I will never take my life for granted, because I never know when my father in heaven is in need of me. I will live each day, and I will let the people I love know that I love them each and every day. Life is far to short to live with regrets, unkindness, and grudges. Move on from those who have hurt you, pray for those who continually use you, and smile to everyone. ...

In loving memory of Renzo, Clay, Jorden, and Denae. Boys, you were the best of friends anyone could ask for. You truly loved everyone and made this world a better place. I know I am where I'm at because of you. Renzo, there will be forever a whole in my heart where you were. Thank you for everything you've done for me. Girls, your sweet gentle smiles will be deeply missed. You girls were the best! Heaven got 4 angels the day you passed. I will see you soon. Nothing will ever fill the void, but with the atoning power of this gospel one day it won't sting as much as it does today. Rest in peace. In loving memory.

We are sent to this earth, and one day our Father in Heaven will call us back. For some our mortal journey is long, hard but worthwhile, and for some our adventure is cut short for no apparent reason. My heart breaks today as my small town lost 4 amazing teenagers with such a bright future in their paths. Renzo, Clay, Jorden, and Denae will be greatly missed by all. They brought such a light into this world. Their call came last night, they were needed somewhere else. It hurts to say goodbye, and think into the future or the past right now, but I am grateful I will see them again. My heart aches for the families who lost their children in this horrible accident.               Renzo was a great friend to all who knew him, he went out of his way to make people feel special and brighten their day just a tiny bit even if it's something as small as asking them on a date. He was so friendly and cheerful. I will miss seeing ...

Whatever.. I'm over it!

Our friendship of years, times spent laughing, times spent crying, I found safety falling into your arms, More than any romantical nonsense, or impossible butterflies, The world was ours, and we conquered all. Then in one short night, it all tumbled down, The years, laughs, pictures. Stuffed away to be given back. And so it was. Our friendship was given back to me In    one         small               plastic                        bag...

Liars. We all know a couple of them and equally they all can't be trusted. That friend who said you looked cute in that color, the boyfriend who said he loved you, the girl who promised she would keep your secret. The dictionary defines a liar as a person who tells lies. Plain and simple. But what is a lie?  Lie: a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth; a falsehood.  The intent to actually purposely deceive someone. What is the point? People say the truth hurts, well I can say that a lie hurts more than a truth. I would rather know what I'm doing wrong when it's happening verses later when I have thought everything was fine. A truthful friend is a true friend, a friend who covers the truth in order to "protect the feelings" is a worthless friend. In this day and age there are so many people who run around pretending to be something they're not, they are liars. There are girls who pretend to like a...

The hardest part of growing up, is learning that sometimes not everyone follows you. It has been a different time of my life to learn that sometimes growing up you have to do what's best for you no matter how hard it hurts at the time. Sometimes you have to walk away from people who use you, hurt you, and crush you. No matter how nice they are in between fights, that ugly side always comes out and no matter what you will lose. Then to see that person with someone they have always said they dislike strongly, and to see them all buddy-buddy makes one wonder if any of the friendship was actually true, if they actually meant what they said or if the whole time they were using you. What sort of sick game do some guys play? Do they get a thrill out of earning a girls trust, of being their best friend then using everything they know about them against them? I just don't get it. Then us girls usually listen to slow, sad love songs, AS IF that will actually make us feel better, when i...

Today was DesiRae (my bestfriend) 's birthday! I am excited for her just because she turned 18! Kind of a big birthday day if you ask me! Well anyways, she recently got a new job and she had to work today (she was wayyy bummed out) around 3 in the afternoon MommaRae (Des's mom) called me up and asked me if I wanted to road trip it to Lethbridge with her to decorate Des's car.. well being the best friend I am.. naturally said... "OH YEAH! LET'S DO THIS" So we piled into the car and took off.. We went to the dollar store and bought a TON of balloons... this is how the car looked.. Let's just say that was the beginning.... Here's another look at it.. There are 3 people in this vehicle.. can't really tell.. can you? It's a little difficult.. and the balloons began to ATTACK me!! and man oh man! was my hair ever staticie after that little ride! When we finally got to her car we had streamers, happy birthday balloons, confetti,...

After much consideration I have decided to jump on the band wagon and get a blog! It's kind of the way my family and friends can keep in touch with me when I move away to Utah, and another way I can keep track of myself. I do not consider myself an excellent writer, in fact I know I have difficult times getting across what I mean versus what I say. So I hope this makes sense. I'm still getting the hang of this whole blog, one day when I figure out how to attach pictures that will be a glorious day!