Skip to main content

This Thanksgiving

A bet most people don't know this. 

This time last year, I was bleeding internally.
The funny thing about this fact, is not only did most people not know, I didn't know.
This time last year I was in immense pain, and had no understanding of what the next year would hold for me.

Each day we get a chance to live life, to come together, and to be better. This is a simple fact that often people take and waste by watching movies, texting, hiding feelings, and doing nothing. Me? I almost lost my life, so I quickly had to change that.

I used to think I had all the time in the world to make a difference, and to change, but that's not true. None of us know the time we have left, therefore we need to stop holding our life in.
Life's for the living so we better start living.

Last Thanksgiving I spent it with some family, and some friends. Even though I had troubles eating, sleeping, and standing I remember enjoying it.
Within 2 weeks I would hit rock bottom without any knowledge of the future. I would then discover a a small amount a tissue that changed everything. I then dealt with the depression surrounding the issue, and go through medication treatment that would destroy, as well as major self image problems.  (Let me tell you, it's hard to feel pretty, when your hair is falling out, when you lose weight all the time, and your skin makes you look like you're dead.)

This Thanksgiving?
I'm packing my belongings in Utah to move to Canada and take over the Royal Conservatory. 
I still have the same self image problems, but I sure as hell built up my confidence enough to stand every single day and make myself feel pretty again. 

This Thanksgiving, I will be celebrating it with a dear old friend. 
This Thanksgiving, I will be thankful for everything I have. 
This Thanksgiving, I am GRATEFUL to be alive. 

-For doctors
-Medication that heals
-Miracles in my life.
-My mom
-My Dad
-Natalie
-Greg
-My grandparents (Atwood, Riggin, Parker, Arnold, Archibald, Hohm)
-All my sisters and brothers and their husbands.
-My roommates
-Trustworthy friends
-All my missionary friends
-That my hair is growing back
- My job opportunities. 
-Great bosses
And 
MY LIFE! 

What are you thankful for? 
Ever thought that you are happy to be alive?
Walking?
Without pain?
With all limbs attached?
With your loved ones by your side?
The roof over your head?


Be thankful. Count your blessings, and allow more blessings to flood into your life.
That's how the Lord works. 
Light + Light = Greater light.




Last Thanksgiving.


This Thanksgiving.

Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Your "Thoughts and Prayers" Are Bullshit.

Yes. I said it. I also thoroughly agree with that statement. Here's why. As I've been going through pretty huge and life-changing medical problems, my family has been physically nowhere near me. Granted my intestine decided to swell up in Saskatoon, which isn't convenient for anyone. It's given me so much time to think, in some scary and painful moments. Let me preface this by saying I'm not a religious person,  However from what I know, God, helped those in need, he didn't just pray for the sick,  he visited them, and he served them. Let's imagine that when that blind guy came to he Jesus, Jesus said, "You're in my thoughts and prayers" and then left. That story would have turned out very differently. We all do and say things in our lives almost out of habit. Like think of how many times you've said "Hey how are you?" and not actually listened for the answer. Lots, I know. I do this ALL the time, and I'm working incr...
2 comments
Read more

Do I Have What it Takes?

! Do I have what it takes? I've asked myself that about 436,598 times over the past 5 years, and in the course of my life.. I know I've asked it even more than that. Being self employed is not an easy task all the time, it's giving up partying on weekends, it's staying home to plan work, or to onboard a client. It's dealing with clients who preach one thing and practice another. It's knowing who you are in and out of the business. This week my friend and I watched Spider-man Homecoming.. okay.. we watched it for like the 5th time.. but whatever.. the point of it is.. there's a moment where Peter is talking to Tony and he says, "You can't take this suit, I'm nothing without it" Then Tony says, "If you are nothing without the suit then you shouldn't have it." Later when it builds to the pinnacle part of the story Peter is crushed under half a building, and he's trying to stand.. it's a very emotional moment fo...
Post a Comment
Read more

In the Daylight

! I'm just a girl sitting here, wondering about the mysteries of the universe. I sat outside on a starry night under the blood wolf super moon waiting to feel the change the air has inside of it. "I'm searching for authentic, true, and loyal people who deeply love me." I whisper to myself as my shutter clicks. I felt the change I was seeking start to take root, I knew it would soon grow, but I was not prepared for what it would bring. I was not prepared to have you standing in the sun. There was no way I planned that there would be no more shadows surrounding who you were, and more so who I was in relation. The change in the air, brought in the truth I needed to visualize what was happening. Since that moment a shift has happened, to me, in clarity. It was like the blinders were ripped off and I was thrust in to the brightness of the noon day sun. I could see everything, there's no shadows, no more questions, no more doubt, only knowl...
Post a Comment
Read more