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This Thanksgiving

A bet most people don't know this. 

This time last year, I was bleeding internally.
The funny thing about this fact, is not only did most people not know, I didn't know.
This time last year I was in immense pain, and had no understanding of what the next year would hold for me.

Each day we get a chance to live life, to come together, and to be better. This is a simple fact that often people take and waste by watching movies, texting, hiding feelings, and doing nothing. Me? I almost lost my life, so I quickly had to change that.

I used to think I had all the time in the world to make a difference, and to change, but that's not true. None of us know the time we have left, therefore we need to stop holding our life in.
Life's for the living so we better start living.

Last Thanksgiving I spent it with some family, and some friends. Even though I had troubles eating, sleeping, and standing I remember enjoying it.
Within 2 weeks I would hit rock bottom without any knowledge of the future. I would then discover a a small amount a tissue that changed everything. I then dealt with the depression surrounding the issue, and go through medication treatment that would destroy, as well as major self image problems.  (Let me tell you, it's hard to feel pretty, when your hair is falling out, when you lose weight all the time, and your skin makes you look like you're dead.)

This Thanksgiving?
I'm packing my belongings in Utah to move to Canada and take over the Royal Conservatory. 
I still have the same self image problems, but I sure as hell built up my confidence enough to stand every single day and make myself feel pretty again. 

This Thanksgiving, I will be celebrating it with a dear old friend. 
This Thanksgiving, I will be thankful for everything I have. 
This Thanksgiving, I am GRATEFUL to be alive. 

-For doctors
-Medication that heals
-Miracles in my life.
-My mom
-My Dad
-Natalie
-Greg
-My grandparents (Atwood, Riggin, Parker, Arnold, Archibald, Hohm)
-All my sisters and brothers and their husbands.
-My roommates
-Trustworthy friends
-All my missionary friends
-That my hair is growing back
- My job opportunities. 
-Great bosses
And 
MY LIFE! 

What are you thankful for? 
Ever thought that you are happy to be alive?
Walking?
Without pain?
With all limbs attached?
With your loved ones by your side?
The roof over your head?


Be thankful. Count your blessings, and allow more blessings to flood into your life.
That's how the Lord works. 
Light + Light = Greater light.




Last Thanksgiving.


This Thanksgiving.

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