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Contrary to popular belief, I am in fact quite alive.
and, better than I've been in a very long time.

I've spent the last 2 months on an emotional roller coaster. You may ask... Why would someone willingly stay on that for that long?
Well because I'm slightly crazy. haha just kidding. But in all reality because I was trying to find out who I am and what I want. Apparently that's what grown ups do, or so I'm told.

I found myself stressing over everything! And I mean EVERYTHING. I kind of became an emotional wreck myself.

Guess what I discovered?

Nope, not myself, and not magically what I'm supposed to do, and nope I didn't solve all my problems.

Now the next question might come up.

So you did this all to yourself and you didn't even find out who you were or anything? You must be crazy Shay!


Maybe, but here are some gems that I discovered


  1. I have a LOVING and SUPPORTING family. Who support and uplift me no matter what I'm doing. 
  2. Life isn't meant to be figured out all at once. It's not possible to do so, trust me I just tried. 
  3. I'm a human, I make mistakes, and sometimes I have 'Shay Moments' Where it's perfectly fine to break down, run away, and hide at your grandparents house. However, that being sad you eventually have to face the storm. Gather your courage to do so, and keep that smile on your face.
  4. Being an adult is WAY harder than anyone lets on.
  5. I needed to change my priorities, (Which I'm adjusting every day) 
  6. Goals and there to guide me to what I want 
  7. And I have a Father in Heaven who, no matter how far I've chosen to walk on my own, loves me and manages to perform miracles in my life.

  9. But mostly, I realized, I don't need to worry about every little detail, for that takes all the fun out of life. It takes too much energy, and it doesn't help in the end. 

So to all those adults, or teenagers who are becoming adults. 
Love yourself for who you are, and figure out a goal as to where you need to be!
All the other little things are just details. Be a good person, and make a difference in this world for the better. Try a little harder every day and you can't fail!

Thank you for all those who were patient in waiting for me to deal with life to write!
And I'm sorry for the scare I gave people who thought I died.. I really just chose to be a hermit for a while!



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  1. Unknown24 April 2014 at 20:48

    good stuff Shay. i needed to read this. Thank you.

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  2. Shay!28 April 2014 at 10:23

    Thank you! I'm glad that it helped and I hope you are doing wonderful! :)

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