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How Do You Feel?

I've been terrified of this moment my whole life.



I knew eventually it had to happen, because odds are it would. Odds are, I would prepare for the future, and that future might not prepare for me.



This moment is here, and it's worse than anyone could prepare me for, but at the same time it's this 'I can be empowered moment.'



I wish life was as easy as a love song. "I want you to want me," Bam, they magically wanted you.



"You are good enough to me, and I'm good enough for you." Woot. There we go, things work out.



But no, life is a mixture of everything. A little bit of everything. So because of that, I will be posting wonderful songs, videos and movie clips because I'd rather show that, than what "I'm feeling"



Because sometimes you are past all feelings and other people can express you better than you can yourself.



Here it goes: my first song, and I'm not going to explain it. Just listen. It's lovely.



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