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Lessons From Environmental Issues: State Shift

I've been taking this Bio class called environmental issues, and to put it lightly, there's not a whole lot that I like about it.

However I found something useful this week, maybe something that touched me more than it should have.

There are different types of changes in the environment. For example:

Resilience :  is the ability for the environment to bounce back after something drastic happens. Like a tornado, or a hurricane.
Let's put this into people's lives, this is like a break up, or the ending of a friendship. It hurts, it even devastates you but give it time, all things will go back to it's natural state. However long that takes, it will heal. You will heal.

Then..

There's a change called a state shift. This is uncommon in the environment, because of it's tragic and lasting effects. A state shift means no matter how hard the environment tries, it will never be how it was before, it's changed and can't be reversed.

Now let's put that into real people life.
This is tragedy at it's greatest. This is death.  I venture to say that is what happens when tragedy strikes a crater is formed, and once the 'healing happens' you still are never the same person. There is a crater where a life used to be, one that can never be filled. This is deeper than breaking up, or a friendship ending. There is no hope of anyone coming and filling that gap of where your loved one was. This is a loss. We learn to live a life without them, and to find a new level of normal.

Not long ago I posted a post with my New Years phrase ( Found Here )  "I'm not okay, but I will be"

How I have so desperately needed this phrase over the last 11 days. How much my family has needed it. I keep telling myself I'll be okay, but in the lonely nights I got thinking, I won't ever be the "Okay Shay" I was before January 20th. Things have shifted to a state where they can't be reversed. Yes, I'll learn to find a new okay, but for the current time, I hurt.

It's okay to hurt. And it's okay to hurt as much as you are hurting. No one is here to tell you how much pain you can feel. Each life has effected us in different unimaginable ways. So allow yourself to feel the pain and don't expect yourself to be the way you used to be. For you never will.

You, my friend, and I have just experienced a personal state shift. 




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